Suicidal at 19 in 1991
1991
"I was hanging around with my straight
mates from school up until about 18. That started to wear off once they
got girlfriends and I wasn't really going to go through that. I did
have one sort of girlfriend but that was really out of peer pressure.
At the age of eighteen, nineteen with no girlfriend apart from this one
girl that I saw, it was getting quite difficult. I found myself very
confused, probably suicidal round 18, 19, probably planned my own death
by gassing myself in a car. I just didn't see a way out. I used to read
these Ceefax pages from Agony Aunts and Agony Uncles that would say '
Don't lock yourself into anything. Don't pigeonhole yourself.' I used
to hope that one day I would be married with kids or something?
Contributed by: Derek, 35